As a writer, it's hard sometimes not to fall into the lie that all the words suck. I've seen it on a dozen or more posts. Hell, I've been feeling that way for a while. It usually starts around the middle of writing that first draft. And then of course, once you get the first draft done, you have to fight the "What the hell did I just write. OMG I SUCK!" feelings. Then you send it off to your CP's (critique partners) and Beta Readers and sit there biting your nails thinking that they will hate you for even sending them something so absolutely horrible. Then you get their notes back and you're like "OMG! THESE WORDS SUCK!"
Basically, the entire time you are either worried about it sucking or feeling like it sucks.
Which boils down to the reality that all authors are masochists and enjoy feeling bad about ourselves.
Ok, so not really, but it is hard to be positive when you create something out of a vacuum and then make it a living breathing thing that is both believable and entertaining.
Seriously, it's hard.
So when do the words stop sucking?
About the time you change how you think about the whole thing. About the time that you realize the whole thing is a process that won't be done in just one pass. That it is an imperfect thing created by an imperfect person and will never be perfect, but can still be amazing just the same. Some people will love it and some people will hate it and then some people will enjoy it. But no matter what, it won't be perfect. And that's ok.
So, if you want the words to stop sucking, YOU have to do it. Nobody else will do it for you.
Is it hard? Yes, changing your thought processes is very hard.
Can it be done? Yes, it can.
Can I have a cookie? Yes, you may.
So I'm writing this post for you and for me. I've been feeling down and like everything I'm writing sucks. It's an easy trap to fall into. It's also why I have been working on the same chapter since NaNo ended...52 days ago.
Fear and self-doubt kill creativity.
Did I mention that nobody can fix this but you?
So last, but not least, my #writemotivation goals.
- Try to write everyday. Err...um...yeah...skip that.
- Help with the #writemotivation site development Haven't done much lately. Trying to figure out the best way to present a bunch of links on writing, etc.
- Cheer on my tweeps Here and there when I haven't been distracted by XCOM
- Vlog or blog weekly Missed week one, but now back on track.
- Keep up with my reading as I have been devouring books lately. Beta read a couple things.
- Finish up my beta for Jessa Still need to do this. >.<
'Till Next Time